Wow.

Today was my one month follow up surgeons appt. I weighed in and was surprised that I lost another 5lbs since this past thursday from weigh in at support group/class. SO...a total weight loss of 51lbs. WOW.

Today I was able to wear a pair of khaki dress pants that I haven't been able to wear in awhile. Woah. After my appt I decided to treat myself to 2 new tops. I wanted to buy a pair of jeans too, but found nothing that really spoke too me. I did however, remember I have a pair of jeans that I love love love stowed away in my closet, so I am soon to be searching for those & I am sure they will fit once again!

I made a nice supper for the kids & I last night. I was only able to eat the salisbury steak & it didn't settle well at first, but I never felt like it would come back up, just a little miserable. I had a few bites today as well & it did the same thing. So I guess that it will be awhile before I can eat it. No matter. I have found some really cool recipes for post RNY patients. I'm really excited to get cookin! ;)

Stay blessed ^j^

All Good Things to Those Who Wait....(wouldn't that be grand?)

In support group/class I was graduated from soft foods to soft but regular foods, keeping in mind to keep it healthy, low or no fat, no or little sugars, and remembering in trying a new food to try a little and see how it sits. Whew. As if that isn't enough and trying to remember to wait that half hr after eating before I can drink my water, and just trying to get enough darn water in!!!!! I only lost 1lb this wk, but I'm ok with that. At least it was a loss right? And they measured me this time, I hadn't been measured since the day I started the program preop. I've lost 8 inches from around my waist & 7 inches from around my hips. I was like "Are you sure? Because I can't believe that." And she says "Look by your first measurements." I was impressed and thats what made me ok with losing just 1lb. Because I'm still succeeding. I may not see myself as others see me, but I'm trying my best ;)

I spent today with family & it was nice to chat & see everyone. Had a few bites of marinated meatballs, seemed to set well. And then my neice brought out her protein drink she drinks & I had a bit of that & liked it, so off to GNC I will go to find the same brand & flavor. My whey protein drink gets to me sometimes...the sweetness of it, ugh. My kids had a ball and were sleeping like babies by the time we got home tonight.

I have a follow up appointment with the surgeon on tuesday this week. We shall see what he has to say & if he releases me to go back to work full time then too. I'm really going to have to work extra hard on my juggling eating what i need to eat, drinking the water & working. I struggled last wk with it & I was only back part time. I know it can be done, but when you have a boss that doesn't understand, or tolerates things, well you get the picture.

I love this time of year. All the wonderful smells of Fall, the leaves changing, even though we didn't have much of a summer. The beautiful pumpkins and how people display them. Just the 'change' that you feel taking place. Maybe this yr it feels a little more so with what my body is going thru & the things I want to achieve. God give me strength.

Blessing too all!! ^j^

Quick Update

I made myself egg beaters scrambled eggs this morning, with a little mozzarella cheese, parsley flakes, salt/pepper, and a few bits of ham. Yum! I had a 'normal' tasting breakfast! And there was protein involved! I'm finding it hard to get the protein in now that I've cut out the protein shakes the last few days. I need to switch to a different shake mix because the one I have currently is just too sweet. :( Me & sugar are not so good buddies anymore. He treats me badly if I eat something he's in. I do plan on getting new shake mixes from class/support group tomorrow when I go weigh in and fill out my weekly check in form. Just for those days when I know I didn't get the protein & I need to have a shake to balance it all out.

What am I eating? Thats the question I get asked a lot lately. I eat thinly sliced ham, non fat small curd cottage cheese, yogurt (I tried to stick to the greek stuff, but I switched to yoplait low fat, only key lime & banana flavors for now- I still can't have anything with seeds in it) I will probably be able to eat the greek stuff once I can have all those wonderful flavors, but I just had a hard time with the plain stuff. Ugh. I ate a few bites of a baked pork chop, it tasted so good, but it didn't set well in my pouch. It took a long time to process, so I know to stay away from that for awhile longer. I eat applesauce, and still from time to time have eaten baby food veggies.

I walked into work yesterday and the gal that works the wonderful Cafe outside my office, whom I used to get a lovely french vanilla/hazelnut latte from everyday when I could drink stuff like that, says too me "Everyday I see you I think you're gonna walk right outta your scrubs!" Ha! Just because they are BIG on me now that I have lost so much weight. I can't afford to at this point go investing in a lot of clothing, so for now they work. I still don't see me like other people see me. My mind is having that lapse and still sees me like I saw myself.

But thats my quick update. I go to class/support group tomorrow and will update you all after I attend! I hope your all doing well & stay blessed!!

Caio!

Healing

I must have over done it in the beginning because I was feeling so great! Well, hello! 3 kids, 1 cat, 4 bdrm house, school starting, Dr appts, meet & greets, support group/class..whew, you tell me when I'm supposed to rest. I did here & there, don't get me wrong. I slept well most nights, but it had caught up too me. I went to class/support group last night & I think its truly a matter that I am NOT getting the amount of protein I thought I was. So, back to square one & food journeling, so that I can keep total track of it. All I know, I just want something that I really seem to like & have a taste for. I still have no appetite, and most times my mouth feels dry & has a not so good after taste. :( I am only drinking water, although in group we were told we could drink the "Propel" flavored waters & Crystal Light. I tried the Crystal Light, Raspberry..Yum! But it contains aspertame & gives me headaches :(. So good ole H2O, ice cold will do.

My incision sites looks great. They have all healed well. The only slight pain I have from time to time is actually just because my belly area is shrinking and as its doing that its pulling on an adhesion I have on the bowel to the front of the belly. Weird huh? But hopefully that will resolve itself by just settling in nicely so that I won't have to undergo another laprascopic surgery to get rid of the adhesions. Ahhh, the joys.

I lost another 5.7 lbs this wk. Making it a total of 46 lbs lost thus far. Wow, when I type that. My mind hasn't caught up to the realization yet, although people tell me I look great. I notice it in small ways and you know the old saying "we are all our own worst critics". I am thinking postively though :) always ^i^

I had about a 1/3 c of cream of mushroon soup yesterday. It did taste really good. It was a bite thick for me yet, but I kept it down with no problem and no after effects, so I know this is something I can eat. I used to eat it with those lovely soup crackers or saltines, but I stayed away from those. I do like to eat the low fat cheese sticks in different varieties. I like the colby-jack & the mozzarella, they make for a nice diversion and contain protein as well. I've eaten melba toast dry a few times. Its not so bad when you're feeling out your taste buds and to truly see what your pouch will tolerate. I can't wait til next week when I can graduate further to a more solid form of eating. Not that I won't have to still pay attention to portion size or the fact that I will always have to chew my food throughly and swallow in small bites. But it will just seem nice to have 'substance' I think.

In support group there was a gal who I think is struggling with the fact she just cannot have as much to eat whenever she wants it. She's a few wks ahead of me surgery wise, but for example she ate 4-5 weight watchers butter toffee bars in one sitting. OMG what? Right??? She says she feels like "food has deserted her". She paid for it physically for a day or two after. I'm so glad that the teacher that day was the 'behaviorist' for the weight management center I attend. Because he recognized it right off and we all talked about it for a bit. Slipping back into old habits and thinking your going to get better results because of a decision you made, is NOT going to get you the results you desire. A desire to succeed? Or a desire to sabotage? Well, in my case I feel blessed that I haven't had any of those old desires yet totally. I've taken charge of those areas I struggled in before enough to recognize that at some points I ate because I was lonely, sad, bored. I fill my time with spending more time with my kids. Reading more, spending time with motivational friends. Cleaning house.

I'm back to work this week. Half days only to start til I see the Dr on the 29th. So far two days in & its not been so bad. :) Kinda nice to ease back into the swing of things, but at a half-time pace.

I also went yesterday and had a Reiki and Esoteric Healing done. I loved it. I was apprehensive. I'm a touchy feely person, but I have issues when other people want to touch me, especially on the back. I have no clue why that is, but driving there I was a bit nervous, but when I got there I felt totally relaxed & comfortable. The healing was amazing and I walked out of there feeling like a million bucks. There were some interesting things that happened during the healing session which took over an hour, but as you know and read in my profile, I'm an intuative person, and have also been working on my abilities this summer. I feel totally enlightened and I took away from it a feeling of being closer to God if you can imagine that. If your unsure what either healing is about google each and discover what they mean. Some things are not for everyone :) but isn't it wonderful that we are so blessed to be able to make our own choices?

Peace ^j^

Finding Happy Mediums

Have been feeling tired lately. I think it's because I wake up feeling so wonderful in the mornings, that by the end of the day I have over done it in some ways, physically. By the time late afternoon hits I am ready to drop & take a serious nap.

I am getting my protein in everyday, mostly by way of my whey protein powder that I purchased. Mixed into sugar free pudding. I did eat a few bites of skinless grilled chicken & a tablespoonful of mashed potatoes this weekend. I was surprised that the chicken, which smelled marvelous, I really didn't have a taste for, even though it was juicy & grilled to perfection. The mashed potatoes were great, and after that small sitting I was full for hours after.

I am still struggling trying to get all the water in for the day. Seems like I am constantly sipping water, but still feel parched. I discussed this with the Dr & its typical to feel this way, although my labs this week will tell the true story. It did seem to help a bit when I decided to chew on ice chips on Sunday. It got that 'fuzzy mouth feeling' to go away. I constantly have a bottle of water with me everywhere I go, but it tends to get a little warm before I can finish it & I don't know about you, but I don't stomach warm water very well.

I bought a half gallon of Meijer Organic Lactaid fat free milk. Do I like it? Truth, not so much. Upon first taste it has this vanilla flavor thats not so bad, but then it just tastes like watered down milk. Ugh. But, its lactose free, so it settles better on the belly & has no after effects like regular milk sometimes does. It still could never replace good ole whole milk *laugh*. But I if I drink it, its a 1/3 c. . I don't over do it at this point. I think its going to be better to cook with than to actually drink. :) (note: I still buy whole milk for the kids because they need the extra they get from that since their brains are still developing and they have high metabolisms).

I ate a quarter of a piece of dry whole wheat toast last friday since my pouch was acting up & I thought that it would help. I ended up taking a half of an antacid tablet to calm down the 'bubbly' feeling I had goin on. Not sure what caused it, but it certainly was unpleasant. It finally went away and for that I was glad.

In all when people ask me about my choice to do the surgery..Am I happy with my choice? Certainly. Do I struggle? Sure, sometimes, but I am still only 3 wks out from surgery. The only time I did have reservations about my choice was the two days after my procedure. That was the worst, while I was still in the hospital. I was a bit disappointed this past week when I went to class/support group & found I had only lost 4lbs. What?? You say? Disppointed? Yeah, I know now that that feeling was totally unrealistic. The Dr put it in perspective for me, "if you lost 4lbs every wk for the next yr what would you end up weighing?" Yeah..wow, like 72lbs or less, I think. Not gonna happen. So that made my mood lighter.

I've also been having some interesting dreams about my weight loss. In which I experience me being 'lighter & doing things I've not done since I was a child.' I guess its my subconscious preparing me for what I am still capable of doing but just haven't because I got busy living life for others & not so much myself. I have in the past few months, been setting aside 'me time'. Its funny to say that I find it a 'guilty pleasure', just because I am not used to it. I know we all need our alone times and in the last ten yrs my alone time has been strictly my work time, which really is not 'alone time', nor 'me time', but I classified it as such. My 'me time' consists of thus far, my class/support group time, my drum circle meetings every other tuesday night. I am interested in taking a "medical assistance program" class this Fall sometime. For me to understand healing & to help heal other people. Even if its only with positive intention.

Am ready to get out in the swing of things relationship wise I think. Not really a 'pressing issue' with me, but rather a "want" of spending time with someone and enjoying times & life in general at this point. If it happens then great :) if not, then thats ok too, and if its just friends then so be it. I'm not about rushing things, but its always nice to share and its been awhile since I felt connected in that way. I've switched up my way of thinking a bit in regards to all of that, but thats for a totally different blog roll *laugh*.

A few things that may seem trivial too you, but things I have recently experienced that made me go 'hmmm cool.' I am tall, but I recently had to slide my seat forward in my vechicle because of the weight loss I have experienced. :) My bras are all on the furthest in points to clasp that they can possibly go, it will mean buying new bras next time I need to adjust. My blue jeans are almost falling off & when I wear them I am constantly tugging them up by the waist because they just don't fit the way they used too. And silly as this sounds it seems to me that hugging my kids means that I can hug them closer than I could before & it feels really good. :) Closer to my heart.

Hope you're all doing well. Peace & love. ^j^

Come Sit with Me Awhile

For whatever reason I was unable to upload a picture to go with my post today. Oh well. Imagine this: smooth inviting park bench, green rolling grass & beautiful trees heavy with leaves, cobblestone walk, the lap of water as it rushes to shore from the lake, fresh air, and good company. :)

Drink in all my words
let them swim in the ocean that is your mind.
swirling made bright by the glint
of a sunny attitude.
I hope it warms you, brings you peace
gives you comfort in whatever it is you seek.
Giving light is healing, absorb it;
grasp it & always remember to 'pay it forward'.

I am doing well. Still on my pureed diet. I actually had corned beef hash last night. Yum. Melted a little bit of low fat cheese on top & it seemed like heaven. I love corned beef hash. It's simple. The only thing bad about it is that it is high in sodium, but I haven't deviated so much that I cannot have it. In fact, my dietician said "you need stuff like, it's not bad, other than the sodium & it has protein". I did buy & try the low fat puddings in chocolate & vanilla, mostly so that if I was running low on protein for the day I could put a scoop of my whey protein in & mix & go. How does that work for me?? Well, honestly I can say that the pudding tastes great to begin with, but by the time I am half way thru the small serving cup, its so sweet that I have to force myself to eat it because I just mixed in my protein. Silly huh? I wasn't ever a huge sweet eater before, but this kinda has me pleasantly puzzled. :) I'm glad though, I know I probably won't have cravings of any sort for awhile. It's the smells of food that get me most, not that when I smell it I want any, but mmmmmmm, the funniest thing I have heard & used myself recently, is the words 'food porn'. Looks good, smells good, but can't have any. *laugh* And thats alright because I am succeeding. I have taken a liking to the baby foods, sweet potatoes & squash. And I have found that the chicken veggie mix is not so bad if mixed with either. I can have whole grain toast, but my toaster decided to quite working on me (go figure), so it's off to the store today to buy a new one. Ahhh the joy.

Went to the park to hang out with a bariatric buddy & talk weight loss yesterday while his daughter played. It's kind of odd, but I guess it's also normal, but yesterday I felt a tad bit down, only because I felt like this weight loss thing wasn't happening as fast as I want it too. But I know thats unrealistic because I am doing great & it took me a long time to put the weight on, and also I can't see the results or see me the way everyone else does. Just needed the 'pick me up' I get when I can talk to someone who has or is going thru the same things. The sun was nice in the late afternoon, but I was thankful for my hoodie I wore as well. It started to get cool & I am finding that I get colder a lot more easily then before...I always did before because of the problems I have had with my thyroid, but its even more so now. **Laugh** A good friend of mine let's call him the 'dreamy voice guy' said to me the other day "it's because you're losing all your insulation". **I laughed so hard I almost fell off my chair!!!!! He thought he offended me, not in the least! :) So I just know I need to carry a hoodie or a sweater with me at all times. Fall is my favorite time of the year too, so I am sad to see summer coming to and end, but I love the look, the smells, the changes that take place in the Fall. It's a time to be able to snuggle in closer to those you love and are close too and embrace all the beauty that is life. Maybe I'll be able to find that person that wants to snuggle in close as well :)

My support group/class is thursday. Have labs taken & I am hopeing that they tell me before I leave whether or not I am doing ok water intake wise. I know I need to increase, and they did share that it would be difficult in the beginning, but I am curious as to how I am doing. I'm not getting 64 fluid oz yet, maybe pushing 40. I am looking forward to seeing how everyone else is doing as well. And I get to see the medical Dr this time for a quick evaluation. This wk with the dietician she will give us the next level we can go too, which I believe will be regular foods, chewed thoroughly & just making sure that they are lowfat & sugar free for the most part. Should be interesting. And we also get to find out if can be released into the wonderful world of 'workout'. Whether or not we can start our stretching exercises, besides doing our daily walking. Do I still have pain from time to time? Again, I guess I must be very fortunate, the only slight pain I have have is where my incision sites are at. The one thats just above where my jeans ride, seems to be the one that gets irritated the most, but I look at that as where it sits. I haven't had a lot of gas, or probelms with that, nor have I vomited or even gagged. I think, again, because I am conscientious of how much I am taking in. My appetite is not what it used too be. I have to remember to eat because I haven't gotten real hunger pangs yet. Thats typical they say.

Today is another relaxing day. I am going to get thru a few more boxes of things we just don't use/need & maybe even get them loaded somehow in my van for Salvation Army. And maybe take a nap this afternoon with the window open over my bed in the afternoon sun. :) I don't take naps often but I think I need to do this for me. Helps me to awaken with refreshed eyes & heart.

PEACE.

Labor Day Weekend

Weekends almost over. Today is the celebrated Labor Day Holiday. Last BIG tourist weekend of Michigan, so then the kids get to start school tomorrow. WOOHOO! Kids & I are spending today cleaning, then off to Papa & Nana's for a quick visit. We spent the past few days cleaning, sorting through clothes and getting rid of what we don't use, can't wear, etc. Kind of a 'end of summer' Spring cleaning, lol. It's felt pretty cathartic too.

We spent yesterday with family. It seemed nice to spend time with since we don't always get the chance to do that. Picked my brother and one of his boys up & met up at my sisters house to grill out and enjoy the beautiful afternoon. She lives out in the country on a rolling hill surrounded by forests & fields, gorgeous. Grilled homemade venison brats. They smelled soooo good. My sis had also made a chicken tofu salad that smelled delicious, but of course, I couldn't have any of it. When we all sat down, my plate consisted of baby squash & chicken noodle stuff out of a baby food jar. Yeah, it may sound gross, but it was actually not that bad. I drank a few protein shakes yesterday so that I could get my protein in. Gonna have to remember to buy a pill holder and put some extra multi vitamins in so that when I go out and about I can still take them where ever I am. Left from there with a friend & the kids to go into Belding for fireworks. Dayum was it cold. Glad I carry a blanket & my fold up chairs in the back, cuz we sure needed them last night. Kids and I didn't get home til midnight or after, since fireworks were about an hr or more away. Drive back was very quiet for me, lol.

Looking forward to class/support group this coming thursday. Curious to see how much more I have lost. I have not purchased a set of scales yet for my home. I'm afraid too, lol. Although I can see my success in my clothes now. Almost bought some new stuff this wkend, but I couldn't do it, because I want to lose more before I go doing any of that. I do plan on buying a bike sometime soon, & I plan on buying the kit that makes the bike stationary inside during those rainy or winter cold days you just can't ride outside. Need to get some walking in today before we get back started on house cleaning, hope you're all having a great weekend!! PEACE.

My Pouch Hates Me

So yesterday was quite the adventure. I pureed tuna fish with a little lite mayo & skim milk, and had that on saltine crackers. Ugh. It did not sit well and made me miserable!! I think I had 6 small squares all day and in between I did have a 3oz shake with protein added. I felt bloated & I had discomfort in between my shoulder blades. Weird feeling. And I'm not sure yet, but maybe it was the feeling of being stuck in my pouch??

I had no real pain, just very uncomfortable. Then last night late I realized I hadn't taken my antacid tablet at all...DUH..how could I forget that. That added to the whole thing. So I took it & within 45 min I started to feel a little better. But I went to bed feeling pouch heavy.

Today I went back to my magic elixir.

I didn't want to chance it & I may try later to get something else in pureed wise. I said I wasn't going to, but I think I might go get a few jars of baby food veggies and what not. Doing that myself would waste a lot of food. So plan B..baby food, later. I just don't want that feeling again.

I did remember to take my antacid already today and I have had 2 multi vitamins thus far, with two more to go before the day is out.

Kids and I have been cleaning. It'll be so nice to cuddle into bed tonight with fresh bedding and pj's. Think we may go for a walk this evening as it is totally gorgeous out today!! We have pretty full days the next 2 days planned. Visiting family both days, both destinations, one an hour away, the other half hr. But it will be good too see my brother & his kids since I haven't since early summer. And on Monday, maybe the kids will get to use the pool at Papa & Nana's the last time before the seasons out, who knows. Michigan...

Melting with effort...

Had class/support group tonight in East Lansing. Was pretty cool. I was so tired by the time I got there, but everyone was "Wow, you look great!!" that that made up for the fact that I just wanted to crawl back to one of the patient rooms & fall asleep. No rest for the weary today. I could have found the time, but I went to the 'Connections' group in Mt Peezy before I had to be to class in Lansing.

I have lost a total of 16lbs since surgery according to my weigh in today. I asked the nurse "ok, is that healthy in one wk?" she responded with "J thats great!! You're doing wonderfully & everyone is different, they lose at different rates." Ok, I'll take that. I had labs drawn and tried to drink 3 ounces of my 'magic elixir' during class. Met with th dietician & I have graduated to pureed food as of tomorrow. What does that mean?? Texture, variety & one wk of baby like consistancy. That might not sound appealing too you, but my "pouch" (definition of stomach for a post wls patient) is the size of an egg, it can only hold 2 ounces at a time. Amazing huh? And I still have to try and get my 72 grams of protein in a day. I've researched it enough that I don't think it will be that hard to do as long as I'm keeping track of what I eat & whats in it. Plus I have the powder protein to scoop in if I have too. Feel like I am melting, but obviously with effort, otherwise I wouldn't be seeing the results I am. Stopped by my office today to pick up my paycheck & everyone there was like "wow you're melting!! we won't know you when you get back in 2 1/2 weeks!!" I said "yes you will, I'll be the one asking to borrow safety pins to keep my clothes on!!" :)

So now I can have things like low fat cottage cheese on a saltine cracker or small square of toast. I can take tuna or salmon & pure' that & put it on the same & add a little low fat/lite mayo so that its not so dry. I can pure' a banana :) Woohoo!! And theres just all kinds of stuff soft the I can have. I have to make sure I eat 6 somethings small everyday & make sure that I am getting the protein. They said some people are able to eat a 1/2 cup of food by the end of the week & I'm thinking "For real??" Cuz I'm having issues drinking 3 ounces of magic elixir 3-4 times a day, when I am supposed to have it 6 times a day. Thank goodness for adult chewable multi-vitamins!

Have been walking more. :) It's great. They gave us free pedometers in class. I had one already but this one is really nice, think I'll be wearing it more than my old one. They want us walking at least a mile to three miles a day. Gradually working into that of course. It'll be interesting to see just what I do before I actually go out for the walk, to see what I do on a daily basis. My right foot has given me problems today (hurt it in an accident about 17 yrs ago & it flares up from time to time) I think it's just because I was so busy & didn't rest much.

Am resting tomorrow while the kids are cleaning & then in daycare for awhile to give me a break. Maybe lounge around and read my book (currently reading: 'The Doctors Wife' Elizabeth Brundage) and also watch a couple movies that I rented..girly stuff & then history stuff.

Gratitude is in the Attitude

"Gratitude can transform common days into thanksgivings, turn routine jobs into joy, and change ordinary opportunites into blessings." Wm Arthur Ward.

Those are not my words, but I think how they fit in relation to my world, they speak volumns!

Here, one week post op for my RNY surgery. Wow. It's been a week?? I'm doing well. :) I can say that I was NOT nervous going into this, which I thought was a little odd, but I believe when it came time my faith & the good vibes sent by many friends/family all worked in my favor & for that I am thankful!

I was in surgery a total of 2 1/2 hrs. Came out and was in recovery for another 2 hrs then whisked to my room. When I first awoke in recovery I was aware that my deceased father was with me & that he had been there with me the whole time. I was in a lot of pain the first 2 days out. I even wondered too myself "What have you done? I can't believe you did this too yourself." They had me up and walking the same night after surgery. I didn't go far, but I knew I had to be mobil so I did it. The nurses, and patient care techs were all great. Thank God for anti nausea medicine & the pain med, although both made me very sleepy. My 'adopted' dad Mike stayed with me before and after & left around 5pm so he could go get my kids from daycare and take them back to his place to stay, where when I got discharged I also went to stay. Thank GOD for them. I have been blessed in so many ways.
I have 5 incision sites on my belly. If I look at it, they are placed in the 6 o'clock, the 9 o'clock, the 11 o'clock, and the 3 o'clock position, with one on my right side where there was a "Johnson Pratt" or "JP" drain tube, for any signs of blood loss, or infection. I can say that when I do experience pain its only from these healing incision sites. Small price to pay for the wonderful results I am seeing. Now, I CAN finally see the progress I have made. My follow up appt with the surgeon was yesterday (tues) and I weighed in at 13lbs less than I did the day of surgery!! Wow?? Really?? I said. Well they did remove a lot of my stomach. The nurse looks at me and says "your stomach did not weigh that much!! Maybe ounces, be proud, your doing great!"
So my pants are fitting differently, some of my tops seem a lil too big. My bras....well, I have had to cinch them in twice already, but the cup size still remains. :)
So my total weigh loss thus far is 33lbs!! I would never have been able to do this on my own, let alone in the 5 wks it has taken place. Obviously under medical care. I wouldn't recommend losing that much in that time under any other circumstances!!
I have noticed I seem to have more energy as the days progress. Think I overdid it a bit yesterday with all the running ie: Dr appt (my adopted dad Mike took me & the kids), then back home finally to our house, and to my oldest sons school open house to meet his teacher (we walked the block to the school) and then I ended up going to drum circle last night with my friend Bonnie and it was a good relaxing time. Still in need of a hand drum, but used my maracas and it was nice. Then of course I stayed up a lil late last night here online catching up with friends, and trying to draft something for this blog, and putting things away in the house.) Lets say that when it was 1am and I was putting laundry in the dryer, my eyes were barely awake & I welcomed sleep when my head hit the pillow. Not sure I even remember that part because it felt so nice to be home in my own bed after sleeping in a recliner since Friday night. (recommended by surgeon since it doesn't require much 'getting up and out of' and allows the belly to heal better).
I get to go to 'post-op' support group and class this thursday, which I am excited for. AND I get to drive myself. I'm looking forward to meeting new people and hearing their stories, sharing mine & being a part of that. I meet with the Dr & dietician there so that I can move forward from this 'liquid diet'. I had sugar free jello & sugar free applesauce in the hospital. Wow, welcome back texture!! :) I have been able to have a tsp at time those two things, and Sunday when the fam had a huge dinner in celebration of my 'adopted' brothers birthday, I got to have a tsp of mashed potatoes which let me tell you, was heaven!! Then the past two days I have only had my optifast drinks, water, & a few times sugar free applesauce. When it came time for the cake & ice cream I crept into the livingrm into a recliner & started to read my book & fell asleep. Life is good.